enough

 “Proverbs of Hell” Plate 10, The Marriage of Heaven & Hell

by William Blake; The William Blake Page

“You never know what is enough until you know what is more than enough.” –William Blake, Marriage of Heaven and Hell

By pure serendipity, I came across this Blake quote in the latest book I am going to attempt to read (The King of Methlehem by Mark Lindquist).  Although at this point my good friend I refer to in my prior post about the drunken mistake I made with her and her boyfriend (I’ll call her Sadie and her boyfiend I’ll call Kris) has seemed to digest the events a bit more and seems to see them as “the drunken mistake” rather than a planned tryst, I am still battling the sides of me who are also trying to categorize and bury that night.  There was a fine line between enough and too much, and we definitely crossed that line and then defiled it a bit as well. 

I am really disappointed in myself.  My progess as a survivor is so non-linear.  I feel like I exist in a labyrinth that continually shifts and changes so that logic and memory and experience cannot help me find my way out.  I know the way out…Icarus and Daedalus have given survivors that clue, but they’ve also warned us that even in freedom there is the danger of excess–perhaps ESPECIALLY in freedom there is the danger of excess.

~ by silvernightchild on July 13, 2007.